Unconditional

Dear Stanger,

I want to love and to be loved unconditionally. I wish this generation wasn't so "One night stand" and cheating mindset. I can't trust anyone full-heartily because of this. Love is hard. I think I would take unconditional love in any form at this point. I don't have a best friend to talk about this stuff. I'm so empty now and don't think I will ever be as close to someone as I was with her. I don't think I'll love anyone like I loved her. She will always hold a piece of my heart whether that's a good thing or not, I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if I'm in love with her. I think there was a time when feelings arose but I dont know. I'd like to think she's in bed writing in her journal about me. Does her pages continue to be never-ending, is my name a virus on her mind? Do I consume her pages like she does mine? No matter what I write about it all goes back to her. I want to overtake her mine as she does mine because I dont think I can handle being the only one who cares, I hate this. I hate her. No, I dont hate her. I could never hate her. I hate how we are. Love love love? hate hate hate? I don't know.

-Blue