Loving myself

Dear stranger,

They (Maybe 'they' is the world) say one can not love someone else without loving themselves and if that's the truth, I'm probably going to be alone forever. I, of course, don't hate myself, at least not like I use to. I am learning to love myself, slowly but surely. It's funny because I used to completely hate myself to the point where I look back at who I was and where I was at a few years ago with so much sadness. How could someone hate themselves so much? I didn't deserve that. I, at such a young age, shouldn't have had the thoughts I had or done the things I did to myself. It's almost sickening how much I hated myself. I didn't just one day wake up and decide that who I was wasn't good enough. It happened so slowly to the point where I didn't recognize the change in myself and my thoughts. People can be cruel and they were. I don't think I'll ever understand how people can treat other people in such a manner to the point of wanting to die. Some don't realize the effect words and actions can have while others simply don't have the sympathy/empathy to care. But maybe this routes back to hating yourself. Most people hate on others because they already hate themselves. The process of learning to love yourself is a long, hard one and I can say that because I have been learning to love myself for years. Hopefully, someday I'll become friends with myself.

-Blue