I am scared to die

Dear Stranger,

I wrote this during a panic attack, so it's very intense and repetitive, but I am opening myself up and baring myself for you to see.

"I pray there is a place in hell where the fire burns gently for those who weren't saved."

I am so scared every day. I am so scared I'm going to die and go to hell. I am going to burn for eternity.

I want to scream. I want to cry. I'm so scared. I want to believe. I want to so bad. I don't know what to do. I want to believe, but I can't. I am such a bad person. I don't want to burn; I don't want to die. This is real. Life is real. Death is real. People I know will die. My brother will die, my sister, my parents. I pray that for them heaven is real. Please allow them in. They deserve it. I am a lost cause. I am so scared. I'm terrified. I am going to die. No coming back, nothing. I am just dead. I don't want to burn; I'm scared. Please help me. God, please show me. I want to know you. Please help me. I want to be saved. Please, I am so sorry. God. Jesus. Please.

-Blue