Feelings

Dear stranger,

Despite not wanting to be in a relationship, I still have feelings. I can't control who I like no matter how much I like to act like I can. The most I can do is pretend those feelings don't exist and ignore them. Which, I admit, isn't the most healthy thing to do but If I already know I'm not ready for a relationship, what's the point of bringing those feelings to life by speaking about them? The best I can do is acknowledge those feelings and wait for them the pass. I know I'm probably missing out by disregarding my feelings in such a way but I'm not sad. It's just how it is.

-Blue