Changing

Dear stranger,

What’s one thing you wish you never changed about yourself?

I wish I had never changed the way I thought about things. More specifically, my outlook on life. I used to look at life like it was something that could only get better, and maybe that is just me growing up and becoming older, but I miss that. I now look at life as something to be wary about, and that’s not to say it isn’t, but I don’t know. Life was easier when I was younger. You know when you used to ride home from school and the world just looked so small? Like life revolves around you and the people in your life. I miss that.

This falls in line with the way I think about things, but I also wish I had never changed the way I perceive things. Sort of the way I think of things initially. When I am first introduced to anything, whether that be a person or something else, all I can think about is all the bad. The bad side of things, the bad things that could come from it. I am such a pessimistic person. I don’t know when I changed or what made me change but I hate it because I want to look on the bright side of things. I want to think about the good things that can come from life or a person, but I just can’t… well, it’s not that I can’t. I can think of good things that come from life and people, but it’s not something I can do subconsciously as I can when looking at the negative.

-Blue